"Trouble.. you're eating my heart away, and there's nothing much left of me" C.S.

Elena Callas

1982 - 2010

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For Paul

7/15/84 - 10/14/10

painting by Arthur Dove

"tonight the mirror will forgive my face" S.A.

i'd die for this country if only you'd come back and live in middle America with me. but i'll probably just end up hospitalized with a heart condition (among other things), the way its been skipping beats for you. and speaking of hospitals, i never got a chance to tell you about the old woman with sparkling eyes as i placed her pills upon her tongue as gently as the holy fucking communion. it was more comedy than reverence, but i felt like we were seeing each other very deeply. i wish i could have described that to you and listened to you laugh with me about my extraordinarily sweet moments at that difficult job.

any occasion is or is not cause for celebration for the terminally ill.

The Golden Banana

  Wait, was it there all along!?  I thought it was on a different part of the building, or maybe there was more then one.  But last week I walked barefoot up the dune after wading in September's Lake Michigan bath water and there it was.  I couldn't find it for two years and I know I wasn't the only one who went searching for the Golden Banana with the same result.  

  Two and a half years ago she casually walked over to that building and told me to look .  It was on the door I think, a splotch of paint in the center.  I didn't know what I was looking at.  She kept giving me a look, eyebrows arched with increasing intensity until finally madly gesturing at it, implying there was something wrong with me when I finally caught on- the last dope to see the hidden image in a Magic Eye picture.

 Well shit, girl, that is the finest looking Golden Banana I have ever seen.